How soon is now? - Is now too soon?

So many things have changed. So many things have happened. I have had more life experiences in the last 9 weeks than in the 9 months before.

9 weeks ago, I thought I'd never be happy again in my life.
Now, I am happy. Again. More than ever. Because of me, my story, my way, my decisions, my realisations, my epiphany. I am happy with myself.

I will be fine.

Because that is who I am. I can deal with things. I can concentrate on my power when I need it. I find my strength.

Still, I am a bit cautious. I often don't trust myself; I often don't trust my decisions. It seems to me that this happened so soon. Too soon. Am I lying to myself? Do I just want to be fine, but deep inside I am not yet? How can I know? Does anybody ever know? Is anybody ever 'fine'?

Is 9 weeks after the end of a relationship with someone who I regarded as the Love Of My Life too soon?

What does it tell about the relationship? What does it tell about me? Was I in love because I wanted to be in love? Am I out of love because I want to be?

I want to get on with life, my life.. Now needs to be soon and soon needs to be now.